illucidation

It’s a scary feeling, the sensation of opening your inner self .  The feeling  of letting people see your true spirit; the you who loves sappy romantic comedies, or who would rather eat cheese and crackers at home than to dine on a gourmet meal in a five-star restaurant.  Or even scarier, the self who follows a different spiritual path or holds to a different political belief than the one friends and family adhere to .

Exploring those differences takes courage and the willingness to be vulnerable.  Vulnerability is a feeling, a state of mind that we are all born with.  As children we float along on the surface of vulnerability, unaware of any other way, not knowing that it is possible to hide our sensitive underbellies in the depths, to disguise our true selves from the judgments of others.

Through growth and life experience, through moments of hurt or humiliation, we begin forming a shell, a mask to hide behind.  Our mask camouflages  us.  It make us fit into our place in life, fit in with the people around us;   it paints a picture of how we want to be seen by others.  Over time, years or months, or sometimes most of a lifetime, our mask starts to feel stifling.  The true self begins to chip away from the inside, until cracks form.  We reach a stage where we are willing to risk vulnerability in order to restore our authentic, real and vulnerable self.  Our mask crumbles away.

There comes a time in each of our lives when being real, when experiencing and sharing the truth of our existence, transcends  the fear of being vulnerable.  It is when we realize that experiencing a true and real existence is only possible when we are fully open to love, to ideas, to beliefs;  it is only then that we have the courage to be vulnerable. It is only then, when we fully believe, that we know a spirit unmasked is the true measure of human life.